I have confused myself.

I want to pause a moment before I tell the driver to get me to Pansy's grandpaents' place as if hellhounds were chasing us there.

A thought has just occured to me.

Does Pansy think we're going out? I mean, we've flirted, we've danced upon the edge of a relationship, we've been more than cordial with one another, and...

Well, next question. A more telling one.

Do I think we're dating?

I know that I wouldn't mind if we were, at least, but I don't know if I truly want us to be. Do I truly...like her, that way? Does it matter?

Part of me says I wouldn't be this eager to see her if I did not have some romantic interest in her, but then- here I am, alone all summer. If I were, say, going to spend the day at Blaise's, would I feel this... ecstatic?

Maybe.

Dammit.

Let's just see how strong the inclination to kiss her when I first see her is, and go from there.